Tuesday, July 31, 2007

In Memory of...





Four years ago today I receive one of the most tragic calls in my life… Mickey was a shy of two months of age and I had spent a great summer with the boys. We stilled lived in PR I was on Maternity leave since May. I remember my Mom’s voice when she told me that she had gotten a call from my ex BIL son from his first marriage. He told him that he had gotten a call from an old class mate and told him that his Dad was tragically killed

I started to shake and could not even tell my husband what was going on. I immediately called my sister she had just moved to Orlando FL and was all alone over there with her boys. She had just gotten a divorce. The phone was busy as I kept on dialing, I kept telling my husband OMG, OMG it is true her phone is busy OMG. He had no clue and he took the phone from me and hold me near him. He new something was wrong but had no clue what. I was able to calm down and tell him the news mom had told me. He then tried to call on his phone while I called from mine and it finally rang. I just heard the crackle in her voice and new that it was true. My forever BIL was dead. My brother, my friend was gone forever… I knew him since I was 11 years old and he had started to date my older sister. He had always been there when I needed him. We shared a special bond…

OMG how could it be I kept telling myself… He had been in my home two weeks before I had Mickey and he would rub my belly to feel his kicks… He was Little Luis Godfather and he had bought him some Scooby Doo PJ’s. My sister always understood the bond that we had and she always new that he would always be a part of my family even though they were no longer together.

I miss him so much… Hubby and me sometimes while driving down the road to do something with the boys always tell each other how fun it would have been to do these things with him…

He would be so proud of his boys as they are becoming very fine young men. They are so respectful and so warm… Tony has his same smile and does so many things like his dad it gives me chills down my spine. And my godson Alex looks just like him…

Little Luis still remembers his godfather and still has his PJ’s. He will forever be in my heart! We Love you and miss you so much!


RIP
Jose

Can’t understand the reason why
You’d never suspect a friend to die
So close to all of us
Hurt turns to fear
He’ll always and forever stay near
Wish that he is happy
He deserves so much more
The pain that he felt
Is no more.
If you are listening
I want you to know
We miss
We didn’t want you to go

6 comments:

redmaryjanes said...

It is so hard to lose someone you love. You never get over it, you never should.

kris said...

These are the losses that never really leave us, but eventually become the weavings in the beautiful fabric of who we are. They do live on in us.

I am so sorry for your pain in remembering that day. I hope with time you feel his presence in ways that give you reassurance and peace.

Krista said...

I'm so sorry for the loss your family has suffered. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better.

Steffie B. said...

So sorry for your loss.....it never really seems to go away....it's so hard.

Thinking of you today....

theghelertertwins.blogspot.com said...

There you are. I've been missing you. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. This one is bigger than me and I'm at a loss for words. I know you must be devastated. Take time to grieve and remember.....you will always have the memories. No one can take that away from you.

Hugs. Rony

Jeter's Mama said...

so sorry.
I lost my BIL when my nephew was only 8 months old.
like you , he was not my BIL, but MY BROTHER.