Warning: Ramble below!
I do it for ME, ME, ME…
I have been thinking so much lately on my life. I barely have friends. I mean TRUE friends. I have a lot of acquaintances but not one friend that will be there for me the hold my hand in a time of need.
My life is rather boring. Apart from my kids there is not much. I live the normal routine in a hectic life. I live to work and work to live. I only see Hubby after 8:30 pm during the week and on Saturdays. By the time he gets home I am tired from getting up at 4:30 am to get ready for work that we barely have any ALONE time.
I have put up our tree and getting the house prepared for the holidays. Trying to get into the festivity spirit and it is not working. I have been feeling very blue lately and I am trying to shake it off!
I have so many dreams, so many goals and I ask myself on a daily basis if they will ever come true? I just feel stuck in a black hole.
I am also afraid of seeing my boys grow up so fast.
I have been thinking a lot on Joey. In three years he will be off to college and 18. Where has time gone? Will I be able to prepare myself for when the time comes for my baby to leave my side? Have I done everything in my power to raise him as a responsible adult? Have I pampered him to much? Have I been to harsh?
Little Luis is also becoming so independent. He is only 7 but I am so afraid of him growing as fast as Joey has. It seems it was only yesterday I was holding him in my hands for the first time.
And then Mr. Mickey! Everyone talks about the terrible 2’s and 3’s. Well let me tell you all wait till you get to the 4’s. He always keeps me on my toes more than I would like! Mr. Attitude like I call him is knowing how to push my buttons. And the crying and the whining is just insane!
This is why I Blog! To get all the things out from my chest! And it helps me cope better with my life. My blog has become that confident friend that hears me out!