Tuesday, November 27, 2007

I have been asking myself: Why do I blog?

Warning: Ramble below!

I do it for ME, ME, ME

I have been thinking so much lately on my life. I barely have friends. I mean TRUE friends. I have a lot of acquaintances but not one friend that will be there for me the hold my hand in a time of need.

My life is rather boring. Apart from my kids there is not much. I live the normal routine in a hectic life. I live to work and work to live. I only see Hubby after 8:30 pm during the week and on Saturdays. By the time he gets home I am tired from getting up at 4:30 am to get ready for work that we barely have any ALONE time.

I have put up our tree and getting the house prepared for the holidays. Trying to get into the festivity spirit and it is not working. I have been feeling very blue lately and I am trying to shake it off!

I have so many dreams, so many goals and I ask myself on a daily basis if they will ever come true? I just feel stuck in a black hole.

I am also afraid of seeing my boys grow up so fast.

I have been thinking a lot on Joey. In three years he will be off to college and 18. Where has time gone? Will I be able to prepare myself for when the time comes for my baby to leave my side? Have I done everything in my power to raise him as a responsible adult? Have I pampered him to much? Have I been to harsh?

Little Luis is also becoming so independent. He is only 7 but I am so afraid of him growing as fast as Joey has. It seems it was only yesterday I was holding him in my hands for the first time.

And then Mr. Mickey! Everyone talks about the terrible 2’s and 3’s. Well let me tell you all wait till you get to the 4’s. He always keeps me on my toes more than I would like! Mr. Attitude like I call him is knowing how to push my buttons. And the crying and the whining is just insane!

This is why I Blog! To get all the things out from my chest! And it helps me cope better with my life. My blog has become that confident friend that hears me out!

5 comments:

redmaryjanes said...

I feel the same way. It is a place to gather advice, support and honesty.

theghelertertwins.blogspot.com said...

I so am right there with you girl. Here is where I have found the bestest of girl friends. Big hugz to you!!!

Jeter Mama said...

I AM your friend, dear heart....

Yoly said...

OMG, it seems we all blog for the same reasons. My Blog is like a diary, specially for my son. But it has helped me find lots of good friends and you are one of them.

As far as Kids growing up, there is nothing we can do about it except enjoy every minute with them.

My eldest, moved out of my house already. I called him three or four times a day, but beleive me you get used to it. At first is was hard, but they all have to leave the nest one day or the other. We did it too.

So girl, cheer up and keep on blogging..

Steffie B. said...

I am your friend too.....I too feel like I really don't have many close friends. Although I do not work, I seclude myself with the kids and when my sister does come....I usually am alone running errands on those days. Life is funny....BUT I do believe it is "Us", "the Wives", "the Mothers" that keeps our families glued together. I believe that is one of the many purposes God has called us to do. It's a never ending search my friend.....find your purpose and fill your soul with all that is good. You are beautiful!